im in love with you
and i dont think you know it
i dont think you really understand
the gravity of it
i often sleep in your hoodie
cuz i love the scent of you
i find myself looking at
your picture when im away from you
when i get you in my presence
its hard for me to leave you
you asked me why i always
hold your hand so tight
cuz im afraid one day
ill wake up from this dream
and you'll be gone, just like
every other person that ive loved
you never fail to give me
butterflies whenever you touch me
and every time i see you
i fall more in love with you
and no matter what
i can never stay upset with you
you always make me happy
i want nothing more to
remain in your eyes, in your heart
in your love
id do anything for you
cuz i just want you to be happy
i want to make you feel about me
what i feel for you
and it kills me to know that
i may have caused you pain
and im sorry for putting you
in this situation
but ive never felt this way
for anyone else
and i really dont think
i ever will
cuz my heart truly belongs
to you
im sorry if this is too much
or if i come on too strong
but its hard to hide
what i feel
and this isnt all
but idk if im making sense
cuz im struggling to find
the right words
and no matter what happens
in this life
ill always love you
because you are truly
everything to me
forever yours,
bdr
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Monday, September 28, 2009
r.i.p. derrion
havent been here in a while but i needed to post this...
Derrion Albert was a 16yr old boy
who was beaten to death in chicago during a gang fight after school
but the part that makes it so much worse is
he was a passer-by he had nothin to do with the fight...
for me to see this it really makes me wake up
the world isnt the same way it used to be
its alot more dangerous
especially when the danger is being caused by
kids my age im only 17
and its sooo sad that kids cant be kids anymore
because of things like this......
im praying not only for him and his family
but for kids all over the world...
things like this really make u realize
that today is not promised...
if u have not seen the video and u want to
visit news.aol.com and search his name
but the video is graphic...
spread the word of Derrion Albert and maybe
it can save someone elses life...
r.i.p. derrion.
Derrion Albert was a 16yr old boy
who was beaten to death in chicago during a gang fight after school
but the part that makes it so much worse is
he was a passer-by he had nothin to do with the fight...
for me to see this it really makes me wake up
the world isnt the same way it used to be
its alot more dangerous
especially when the danger is being caused by
kids my age im only 17
and its sooo sad that kids cant be kids anymore
because of things like this......
im praying not only for him and his family
but for kids all over the world...
things like this really make u realize
that today is not promised...
if u have not seen the video and u want to
visit news.aol.com and search his name
but the video is graphic...
spread the word of Derrion Albert and maybe
it can save someone elses life...
r.i.p. derrion.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
full speed ahead
ok soooo its summer!!!!!
which means this fall im gonna be a
SENIOR!!!
im soooo excited and relieved
highschool drama will soon be over
but
real world drama will cum at me full speed
sooo when i think of highschool coming to an end im sooo happy
but
when i think of the future im TERRIFIED
and even though im scared out of my mind
im gonna try my hardest to live life
to the fullest
the other night my family had a scare
we thought my mom had a stroke
and thank GOD she didnt
but even though it was only a scare
it opened my eyes
..we never really kno when our time will cum
but when its my time i wanna go happy
meaning that i wanna be able to say:
ive been here and done everything
i wanted to do while i had the chance
...i wanna do so much with my life and in my lifetime
i wanna leave my mark sumwhere, with sumone, or sumthing
...sooo here's a toast to actually living
bcuz its one thing to settle into life
and its another to take it on full speed ahead
=]
...and we're gonna start off by adding sum color
lol
which means this fall im gonna be a
SENIOR!!!
im soooo excited and relieved
highschool drama will soon be over
but
real world drama will cum at me full speed
sooo when i think of highschool coming to an end im sooo happy
but
when i think of the future im TERRIFIED
and even though im scared out of my mind
im gonna try my hardest to live life
to the fullest
the other night my family had a scare
we thought my mom had a stroke
and thank GOD she didnt
but even though it was only a scare
it opened my eyes
..we never really kno when our time will cum
but when its my time i wanna go happy
meaning that i wanna be able to say:
ive been here and done everything
i wanted to do while i had the chance
...i wanna do so much with my life and in my lifetime
i wanna leave my mark sumwhere, with sumone, or sumthing
...sooo here's a toast to actually living
bcuz its one thing to settle into life
and its another to take it on full speed ahead
=]
...and we're gonna start off by adding sum color
lol
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
pathetic
idk wtf to do!!!
i feel like shit all the time
its official
ive been consumed by the
darkness in my mind once again.
i just wanna scream....
but i cant because if i do
ill blow my cover.
i thought i was making a good descion last nite
when i said goodbye
but now i just feel worse.
i cant do shit right.
the only thing i have to comfort me
is my tears
because to get to the good
uve gotta go thru the bad rite??
or is that just sumthin sumone made up???
watever it doesnt matter anyway
maybe im just meant to be alone.
i gotta go wipe the tears from my eyes.
.....
i feel like shit all the time
its official
ive been consumed by the
darkness in my mind once again.
i just wanna scream....
but i cant because if i do
ill blow my cover.
i thought i was making a good descion last nite
when i said goodbye
but now i just feel worse.
i cant do shit right.
the only thing i have to comfort me
is my tears
because to get to the good
uve gotta go thru the bad rite??
or is that just sumthin sumone made up???
watever it doesnt matter anyway
maybe im just meant to be alone.
i gotta go wipe the tears from my eyes.
.....
Thursday, April 23, 2009
be u
sooo i was revising a couple comments on the net
made by sum people i kno
*****(not sayin names dont wanna expose them)*****
but anywho...as i was doin this i came up on sum wierd shiiid
and i made a discovery...
i discovered that half the people i kno are POSERS!!!!!
wats so wrong with poseres u ask??
well hmm lets see...
THEY'RE FAKE....THERE'S NOTHIN REAL ABOUT THEM
they try to be so "down" with everything
im glad i have a few eal people in my life
or i think i mite lose itt..
.
made by sum people i kno
*****(not sayin names dont wanna expose them)*****
but anywho...as i was doin this i came up on sum wierd shiiid
and i made a discovery...
i discovered that half the people i kno are POSERS!!!!!
wats so wrong with poseres u ask??
well hmm lets see...
THEY'RE FAKE....THERE'S NOTHIN REAL ABOUT THEM
they try to be so "down" with everything
im glad i have a few eal people in my life
or i think i mite lose itt..
.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
update
ok so its time for an update...
spring break starts friday and ummm
its going to suck.
i cant sleep in late like i planned because of my stupid
play rehearsals.
and its effin snowin...
imean its beautiful but come on its freakin april!!!...
ugggghhh idk wat to do with myself.
we're starting this "career passport" in english
and its making me depressed because
I HAVE NO IDEA WAT I WANNA DO WITH MY LIFE!!!!!...
im a junior so i have a little time to figure out but the clock is running out.
idk wat im gonna do with myself..
i just wanna crawl under the covers and have
everything be perfect when i cum out
but thats not how life works...
o and to make things better the act and sat are in june!!!!!
ugggghhh im freakin out on the inside but
im holdin it together on the outside
i just hope i dont crack under the pressure...
at least there is one good thing that has happened
....well i finally have a boyfriend
who goes by the name of:
ANTHONY...
he's pretty amazing and thats all u need to kno.
well gotta go i have to finish writing my
"career narrative"
yippeee (sarcasm)...
(exhale) well wish me luck
brittny
spring break starts friday and ummm
its going to suck.
i cant sleep in late like i planned because of my stupid
play rehearsals.
and its effin snowin...
imean its beautiful but come on its freakin april!!!...
ugggghhh idk wat to do with myself.
we're starting this "career passport" in english
and its making me depressed because
I HAVE NO IDEA WAT I WANNA DO WITH MY LIFE!!!!!...
im a junior so i have a little time to figure out but the clock is running out.
idk wat im gonna do with myself..
i just wanna crawl under the covers and have
everything be perfect when i cum out
but thats not how life works...
o and to make things better the act and sat are in june!!!!!
ugggghhh im freakin out on the inside but
im holdin it together on the outside
i just hope i dont crack under the pressure...
at least there is one good thing that has happened
....well i finally have a boyfriend
who goes by the name of:
ANTHONY...
he's pretty amazing and thats all u need to kno.
well gotta go i have to finish writing my
"career narrative"
yippeee (sarcasm)...
(exhale) well wish me luck
brittny
Monday, March 2, 2009
yea soo my bday was friday im now 17
woop dee doo>pssh not really...i remember the days
when having a birthday was a huge deal... ya kno
like when u turn 10 or 13 u probably thought that
was the biggest thing ever... now im just like
"thank god for another year" and thats it...
theres nothin rejuvenating about it...idk
i wonder wat the next birthday will be like...
i dedicate this whole year to reinventing myself,
to finding some type of purpose or depth,
its like i kno wat i wanna do with my life
but i dont kno wat i wanna do....
ive been askin nanette to help me figure these things out
but im the only one who can...
i have alot of things to discover for myself
before i turn 18...bcuz 18 practically means i have to sink or swim..
and rite now i feel like swimming im not gonna sink...
well gotta go tons of homework to do
and tons of marathons to watch...
love life
brittny
woop dee doo>pssh not really...i remember the days
when having a birthday was a huge deal... ya kno
like when u turn 10 or 13 u probably thought that
was the biggest thing ever... now im just like
"thank god for another year" and thats it...
theres nothin rejuvenating about it...idk
i wonder wat the next birthday will be like...
i dedicate this whole year to reinventing myself,
to finding some type of purpose or depth,
its like i kno wat i wanna do with my life
but i dont kno wat i wanna do....
ive been askin nanette to help me figure these things out
but im the only one who can...
i have alot of things to discover for myself
before i turn 18...bcuz 18 practically means i have to sink or swim..
and rite now i feel like swimming im not gonna sink...
well gotta go tons of homework to do
and tons of marathons to watch...
love life
brittny
Thursday, February 19, 2009
a little sumthin sumthin..
ok sooo i write a little poetry here and there and
i wrote this on the 17 during algebra 2 (hell) but anywhoo..
my friends who read it says its pretty good but a bit scary lol but watever
umm soo let me kno wat u think of it....
As I sit just waiting, thinking
contemplating my inner thoughts
searching for worth, for depth
mind boggling journey, grasping for what
I cant feel, its hiding, running,
my pace is slowing, or is it time
freezing extending every moment
for an hour even longer, darkness
consumes, star gazing no longer an option,
Im here in my solitude
Serenity is unavailable, this task is
becoming harder, so I induldge,
with every sip I become smarter,
my cup no longer runneth over,
so skin rips under the pressure, and
with every drop of blood the pain I smother,
rivers flow from my eyes as I journey through my own mind,
I shy away from humanity,
trying to find my sanity,
until I reach that point
Ill walk this lonely road
thee only soul who can save me is my own
...thee end
= p
i wrote this on the 17 during algebra 2 (hell) but anywhoo..
my friends who read it says its pretty good but a bit scary lol but watever
umm soo let me kno wat u think of it....
As I sit just waiting, thinking
contemplating my inner thoughts
searching for worth, for depth
mind boggling journey, grasping for what
I cant feel, its hiding, running,
my pace is slowing, or is it time
freezing extending every moment
for an hour even longer, darkness
consumes, star gazing no longer an option,
Im here in my solitude
Serenity is unavailable, this task is
becoming harder, so I induldge,
with every sip I become smarter,
my cup no longer runneth over,
so skin rips under the pressure, and
with every drop of blood the pain I smother,
rivers flow from my eyes as I journey through my own mind,
I shy away from humanity,
trying to find my sanity,
until I reach that point
Ill walk this lonely road
thee only soul who can save me is my own
...thee end
= p
Saturday, February 7, 2009
life is sooo delicate
at any second everything u
knew can be over
sooo with that being said
make amends with those who u r on bad terms with
let the people that u love know that u love them
live every second as if it were ur last
and live life for no one but urself
...im saying this because its tru
dont let life slip away from u
hold on tight while u can
xoxo
at any second everything u
knew can be over
sooo with that being said
make amends with those who u r on bad terms with
let the people that u love know that u love them
live every second as if it were ur last
and live life for no one but urself
...im saying this because its tru
dont let life slip away from u
hold on tight while u can
xoxo
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
hint hint: plastic
Ok sooo am i crazy???
..or could i just be imagining that everyone in my life that holds some type of importance
is leaving me behind...these days i really feel like im drowning
..i am a very good actress....ive learned to hide my feelings, emotions, etc because ive never really felt that anyone cared...
....but for some people hiding their feelings might be a good thing but to constantly hold in emotion is very unhealthy...in result ive said and done things to myself and to others that i never wouldve done if the circumstances were different...like i said before i dont regret anything because everything im not makes me everything i am...
....being an actress isnt easy...you lie to people that you should trust...u never really let anyone in...yes i have bestfriends and some know more about me than others but no one knows everything about me....im trying to change but since my friends are drifting away from me it makes it even harder than usual....
.....with that being said know that im not saying that i lie and hide every little thing, only the things that could let people get uncomfortably close to the real me....i could look perfectly fine on thee outside but on thee inside im usually falling apart (hint hint: plastic)...i just need to find someone who i can trust enough to let in someone who wont turn away fromme, someone that will actually be there for me...im always someones shoulder but who's gonna be mine
....does that make me crazy???
..or could i just be imagining that everyone in my life that holds some type of importance
is leaving me behind...these days i really feel like im drowning
..i am a very good actress....ive learned to hide my feelings, emotions, etc because ive never really felt that anyone cared...
....but for some people hiding their feelings might be a good thing but to constantly hold in emotion is very unhealthy...in result ive said and done things to myself and to others that i never wouldve done if the circumstances were different...like i said before i dont regret anything because everything im not makes me everything i am...
....being an actress isnt easy...you lie to people that you should trust...u never really let anyone in...yes i have bestfriends and some know more about me than others but no one knows everything about me....im trying to change but since my friends are drifting away from me it makes it even harder than usual....
.....with that being said know that im not saying that i lie and hide every little thing, only the things that could let people get uncomfortably close to the real me....i could look perfectly fine on thee outside but on thee inside im usually falling apart (hint hint: plastic)...i just need to find someone who i can trust enough to let in someone who wont turn away fromme, someone that will actually be there for me...im always someones shoulder but who's gonna be mine
....does that make me crazy???
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
drift away
okay i have no idea wat to do!!!! well lets start from the beginning...one of my "bestfriends" since diapers has changed DRASTICALLY over the past few months: lets call her X...now yes she has had ups and downs before and for every single one of them ive been right there by her side...
....but theres always been this so called "friend" that she could never let go of: umm lets call her Y....now Y is nothing like a friend to X she stabs her in the back constantly, she puts all her business in the street, she not only dawgs X behind her back but to her face as well....
....soooo I hate to c my friends down and out which X is majority of the time....ive constantly warned X about Y and at first she didnt really acknwledge the truth..evenyually X woke up from her delusional friendship with Y and cut her loose....
....and this "freedom" lasted all for about 3 or ill give it 5 months...but anyways about a month ago i realized that Y had reeled X in once again and this tine i left it alone...but i also started to notice that X and I were slowly drifting apart.....
....soo me being me i asked her why, "why have u cut me and all of your other real friends off X!?!"...and she simply replied "O I just DONT f*@# wit NOBODY from this school anymore"....hmmm i thought let me get this clarified, "soooo wat ur saying is we're not cool anymore or something of that nature????"....she then responded with..."no i just dont f*@#
wit nobody from this school"..........hint hint: naw bitch we aint cool....
....sooo i left it at that....now my dilemma is: i am extremely loyal to all of my friends...but once u justify urself as someone who is no longer my friend or as someone who no loner "F's" with me (which has the same meaning) u never get that friendship back....the bond will never be as tight, the vibe will never be the same...now i can swallow my pride and kinda sorta give you some kind of friendship but it will never be that friendship as it was before.....
.....now like i said in the beginnig X is my girl or should i say was my girl???....but watever....i dont know if i should let her cum back and reclaim her spot as it seems she is tryin to do now...or should i give her the same treatment as everyone else who walks in and out of my life.....
.....good friends are hard to find in this world so when u find them u should hold onto them rite...or when u let it slip away do u try to get it back or let it drift away????....
....but theres always been this so called "friend" that she could never let go of: umm lets call her Y....now Y is nothing like a friend to X she stabs her in the back constantly, she puts all her business in the street, she not only dawgs X behind her back but to her face as well....
....soooo I hate to c my friends down and out which X is majority of the time....ive constantly warned X about Y and at first she didnt really acknwledge the truth..evenyually X woke up from her delusional friendship with Y and cut her loose....
....and this "freedom" lasted all for about 3 or ill give it 5 months...but anyways about a month ago i realized that Y had reeled X in once again and this tine i left it alone...but i also started to notice that X and I were slowly drifting apart.....
....soo me being me i asked her why, "why have u cut me and all of your other real friends off X!?!"...and she simply replied "O I just DONT f*@# wit NOBODY from this school anymore"....hmmm i thought let me get this clarified, "soooo wat ur saying is we're not cool anymore or something of that nature????"....she then responded with..."no i just dont f*@#
wit nobody from this school"..........hint hint: naw bitch we aint cool....
....sooo i left it at that....now my dilemma is: i am extremely loyal to all of my friends...but once u justify urself as someone who is no longer my friend or as someone who no loner "F's" with me (which has the same meaning) u never get that friendship back....the bond will never be as tight, the vibe will never be the same...now i can swallow my pride and kinda sorta give you some kind of friendship but it will never be that friendship as it was before.....
.....now like i said in the beginnig X is my girl or should i say was my girl???....but watever....i dont know if i should let her cum back and reclaim her spot as it seems she is tryin to do now...or should i give her the same treatment as everyone else who walks in and out of my life.....
.....good friends are hard to find in this world so when u find them u should hold onto them rite...or when u let it slip away do u try to get it back or let it drift away????....
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
my new years resolution...
yessir (lol)...well to be honest i really dont have one
idk its like i do have one but i dont
but i just dont know how to put it into words
lol idk trying to explain it just confused me a little
...but o yea i did want to get one thing off my chest
as i mature and progress through this
maze we call life i look back on my life and see what i was then
and who i am now
i know for a fact that at least 2 years ago i was rude, obnoxious,
self-centered, and just an all around bitch...(i hate calling myself that but its the truth)...
even with that said i dont regret anything in my past because my past
makes me the person that i am today and the present makes me who i will become in the future.
but i kno that i used to say things to people which i had no right to say,
i disrespected people for no reason at all,
i lashed out on people who were nothin but nice to me,
...i just wasnt a pleasant person to be around...
...and now i just want to apologize to everyone ive ever hurt in anyway...
people already make life hard enough for themselves
sooo instead of making it even harder for them we should all be trying to lift that person up...
and when you think about it its not that hard to brighten someones day
sometimes a simple hug, smile, or a compliment will suffice...
idk maybe im crazy or "weird" like my sister says
but i truly believe that these small things will help us as a unit and as our own person...
....sooo its only 1:35 in the morning
and i have no idea if ill make it through the day or even through the next 10 minutes
but as the 2008 year is coming to a close
i kno that i am truly grateful for everything
and i hope to make it through another year
but no matter what i know that i am blessed
^_^
much love
"08"
idk its like i do have one but i dont
but i just dont know how to put it into words
lol idk trying to explain it just confused me a little
...but o yea i did want to get one thing off my chest
as i mature and progress through this
maze we call life i look back on my life and see what i was then
and who i am now
i know for a fact that at least 2 years ago i was rude, obnoxious,
self-centered, and just an all around bitch...(i hate calling myself that but its the truth)...
even with that said i dont regret anything in my past because my past
makes me the person that i am today and the present makes me who i will become in the future.
but i kno that i used to say things to people which i had no right to say,
i disrespected people for no reason at all,
i lashed out on people who were nothin but nice to me,
...i just wasnt a pleasant person to be around...
...and now i just want to apologize to everyone ive ever hurt in anyway...
people already make life hard enough for themselves
sooo instead of making it even harder for them we should all be trying to lift that person up...
and when you think about it its not that hard to brighten someones day
sometimes a simple hug, smile, or a compliment will suffice...
idk maybe im crazy or "weird" like my sister says
but i truly believe that these small things will help us as a unit and as our own person...
....sooo its only 1:35 in the morning
and i have no idea if ill make it through the day or even through the next 10 minutes
but as the 2008 year is coming to a close
i kno that i am truly grateful for everything
and i hope to make it through another year
but no matter what i know that i am blessed
^_^
much love
"08"
Friday, December 19, 2008
curiosity
ok sooo i consider myself to be a pretty cool person...i mean lets face it yes i have my ups and downs and yes i can be a MAJOR bitch at times...but isnt that natural???
....or am i wrong for standing up to people that no one else will stand up to???...wat gives people the right to think they can say and do watever they like to whoever they want???
....is it human nature to pick on the under-dog or is it just one of those "when in rome do as the romans do" type of thing???
....am i wrong for telling people the complete truth or are people wrong for avoiding the truth???
....am i wrong for dropping friends who talk about me behind my back or am i wrong for conscientiously knowing my friend is talking about me behind my back but i look past that???
....robin hood stole from the rich and gave to the poor...but is it right for someone to steal from someone who isnt rich and give to someone who isnt poor???
i kno that i make mistakes in life and i kno i am not perfect but no one else is either...when it cums to humanity there is no such thing as supremacy because we all have flaws...i hate people who think they are better than others arrogance is not cute...people who boast and brag about themselves are just envious of someone else but people fail to realize that green is not a good color to wear...no one is innocent when it cums to having imperfections so as humans we are all equally guilty
are we wrong for hiding behind plastic cover-ups..or are we wrong to show our tru colors
....or am i wrong for standing up to people that no one else will stand up to???...wat gives people the right to think they can say and do watever they like to whoever they want???
....is it human nature to pick on the under-dog or is it just one of those "when in rome do as the romans do" type of thing???
....am i wrong for telling people the complete truth or are people wrong for avoiding the truth???
....am i wrong for dropping friends who talk about me behind my back or am i wrong for conscientiously knowing my friend is talking about me behind my back but i look past that???
....robin hood stole from the rich and gave to the poor...but is it right for someone to steal from someone who isnt rich and give to someone who isnt poor???
i kno that i make mistakes in life and i kno i am not perfect but no one else is either...when it cums to humanity there is no such thing as supremacy because we all have flaws...i hate people who think they are better than others arrogance is not cute...people who boast and brag about themselves are just envious of someone else but people fail to realize that green is not a good color to wear...no one is innocent when it cums to having imperfections so as humans we are all equally guilty
are we wrong for hiding behind plastic cover-ups..or are we wrong to show our tru colors
Thursday, December 18, 2008
hey hey hey...im brittny and im plastic....
u kno like the girl who looks like her life is
sooo perfect and under control...yea thats me.
but psst im here to tell u that wat u see on
the exterior is nothing like the interior....
over time youll see wat im sayin.....but i guess
i should inform you of myself...
lets see...ummm..wait a sec while i change my theme music...
ah..here we go.....
well im only 16 and im 5'11 (yes ive stopped growing ive been this way since grade 8)..
i grew up in the mistake on the lake known as CLEVELAND...
livin here is not easy cuz for people my age there is not much to do but do what we shouldnt be doing...i live with norma and don (aka mommy and daddy) and lexi (the super dog)...
i guess u can say i kinda look up to the older cunt alisha (my sister) and the older dick (lamonte)..
i go to a school for performing arts and i major in vocal music...
on weekends i try to sleep til 1pm and get amped off green tea...
if im not home more than likely im wit DEANDRA (the cuzzo)...
i loooveee peace signs and the color black (which is ironic..in a way)...
rite now im becoming deeply infatuated with FASHION
i wanna be a fashion marketer in the future...i live for the hills (mtv monday nights 10:30 est)...
and i didnt wanna talk to much sooo
im gonna sum it up with my loooove life (which is not happenin at the moment)...
in august 2007 i met one of the most amazing guys in the world and i fell deeply in love with him
but we are no longer an "item"...even though he has hurt me in many MANY ways he is now one of my best friends...ive been single for 1 year and sum months now and in ways thats been a good and bad thing....i am not searching for a guy but having someone there for me and ONLY me is a very comforting thing...i figure that life is hard enough when ur alone but when uve got somebody good in ur life the bad times dont seem as bad and the good times feel 10x better...
well im gonna go now...
peace
u kno like the girl who looks like her life is
sooo perfect and under control...yea thats me.
but psst im here to tell u that wat u see on
the exterior is nothing like the interior....
over time youll see wat im sayin.....but i guess
i should inform you of myself...
lets see...ummm..wait a sec while i change my theme music...
ah..here we go.....
well im only 16 and im 5'11 (yes ive stopped growing ive been this way since grade 8)..
i grew up in the mistake on the lake known as CLEVELAND...
livin here is not easy cuz for people my age there is not much to do but do what we shouldnt be doing...i live with norma and don (aka mommy and daddy) and lexi (the super dog)...
i guess u can say i kinda look up to the older cunt alisha (my sister) and the older dick (lamonte)..
i go to a school for performing arts and i major in vocal music...
on weekends i try to sleep til 1pm and get amped off green tea...
if im not home more than likely im wit DEANDRA (the cuzzo)...
i loooveee peace signs and the color black (which is ironic..in a way)...
rite now im becoming deeply infatuated with FASHION
i wanna be a fashion marketer in the future...i live for the hills (mtv monday nights 10:30 est)...
and i didnt wanna talk to much sooo
im gonna sum it up with my loooove life (which is not happenin at the moment)...
in august 2007 i met one of the most amazing guys in the world and i fell deeply in love with him
but we are no longer an "item"...even though he has hurt me in many MANY ways he is now one of my best friends...ive been single for 1 year and sum months now and in ways thats been a good and bad thing....i am not searching for a guy but having someone there for me and ONLY me is a very comforting thing...i figure that life is hard enough when ur alone but when uve got somebody good in ur life the bad times dont seem as bad and the good times feel 10x better...
well im gonna go now...
peace
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