my new years resolution...

yessir (lol)...well to be honest i really dont have one
idk its like i do have one but i dont
but i just dont know how to put it into words
lol idk trying to explain it just confused me a little
...but o yea i did want to get one thing off my chest
as i mature and progress through this
maze we call life i look back on my life and see what i was then
and who i am now
i know for a fact that at least 2 years ago i was rude, obnoxious,
self-centered, and just an all around bitch...(i hate calling myself that but its the truth)...
even with that said i dont regret anything in my past because my past
makes me the person that i am today and the present makes me who i will become in the future.
but i kno that i used to say things to people which i had no right to say,
i disrespected people for no reason at all,
i lashed out on people who were nothin but nice to me,
...i just wasnt a pleasant person to be around...

...and now i just want to apologize to everyone ive ever hurt in anyway...
people already make life hard enough for themselves
sooo instead of making it even harder for them we should all be trying to lift that person up...
and when you think about it its not that hard to brighten someones day
sometimes a simple hug, smile, or a compliment will suffice...
idk maybe im crazy or "weird" like my sister says
but i truly believe that these small things will help us as a unit and as our own person...

....sooo its only 1:35 in the morning
and i have no idea if ill make it through the day or even through the next 10 minutes
but as the 2008 year is coming to a close
i kno that i am truly grateful for everything
and i hope to make it through another year
but no matter what i know that i am blessed
^_^


much love
"08"

curiosity

ok sooo i consider myself to be a pretty cool person...i mean lets face it yes i have my ups and downs and yes i can be a MAJOR bitch at times...but isnt that natural???

....or am i wrong for standing up to people that no one else will stand up to???...wat gives people the right to think they can say and do watever they like to whoever they want???

....is it human nature to pick on the under-dog or is it just one of those "when in rome do as the romans do" type of thing???

....am i wrong for telling people the complete truth or are people wrong for avoiding the truth???

....am i wrong for dropping friends who talk about me behind my back or am i wrong for conscientiously knowing my friend is talking about me behind my back but i look past that???

....robin hood stole from the rich and gave to the poor...but is it right for someone to steal from someone who isnt rich and give to someone who isnt poor???

i kno that i make mistakes in life and i kno i am not perfect but no one else is either...when it cums to humanity there is no such thing as supremacy because we all have flaws...i hate people who think they are better than others arrogance is not cute...people who boast and brag about themselves are just envious of someone else but people fail to realize that green is not a good color to wear...no one is innocent when it cums to having imperfections so as humans we are all equally guilty

are we wrong for hiding behind plastic cover-ups..or are we wrong to show our tru colors

hey hey hey...im brittny and im plastic....
u kno like the girl who looks like her life is
sooo perfect and under control...yea thats me.
but psst im here to tell u that wat u see on
the exterior is nothing like the interior....
over time youll see wat im sayin.....but i guess
i should inform you of myself...


lets see...ummm..wait a sec while i change my theme music...
ah..here we go.....
well im only 16 and im 5'11 (yes ive stopped growing ive been this way since grade 8)..
i grew up in the mistake on the lake known as CLEVELAND...
livin here is not easy cuz for people my age there is not much to do but do what we shouldnt be doing...i live with norma and don (aka mommy and daddy) and lexi (the super dog)...
i guess u can say i kinda look up to the older cunt alisha (my sister) and the older dick (lamonte)..
i go to a school for performing arts and i major in vocal music...


on weekends i try to sleep til 1pm and get amped off green tea...
if im not home more than likely im wit DEANDRA (the cuzzo)...
i loooveee peace signs and the color black (which is ironic..in a way)...
rite now im becoming deeply infatuated with FASHION
i wanna be a fashion marketer in the future...i live for the hills (mtv monday nights 10:30 est)...


and i didnt wanna talk to much sooo
im gonna sum it up with my loooove life (which is not happenin at the moment)...
in august 2007 i met one of the most amazing guys in the world and i fell deeply in love with him
but we are no longer an "item"...even though he has hurt me in many MANY ways he is now one of my best friends...ive been single for 1 year and sum months now and in ways thats been a good and bad thing....i am not searching for a guy but having someone there for me and ONLY me is a very comforting thing...i figure that life is hard enough when ur alone but when uve got somebody good in ur life the bad times dont seem as bad and the good times feel 10x better...


well im gonna go now...
peace