drift away

okay i have no idea wat to do!!!! well lets start from the beginning...one of my "bestfriends" since diapers has changed DRASTICALLY over the past few months: lets call her X...now yes she has had ups and downs before and for every single one of them ive been right there by her side...

....but theres always been this so called "friend" that she could never let go of: umm lets call her Y....now Y is nothing like a friend to X she stabs her in the back constantly, she puts all her business in the street, she not only dawgs X behind her back but to her face as well....

....soooo I hate to c my friends down and out which X is majority of the time....ive constantly warned X about Y and at first she didnt really acknwledge the truth..evenyually X woke up from her delusional friendship with Y and cut her loose....

....and this "freedom" lasted all for about 3 or ill give it 5 months...but anyways about a month ago i realized that Y had reeled X in once again and this tine i left it alone...but i also started to notice that X and I were slowly drifting apart.....

....soo me being me i asked her why, "why have u cut me and all of your other real friends off X!?!"...and she simply replied "O I just DONT f*@# wit NOBODY from this school anymore"....hmmm i thought let me get this clarified, "soooo wat ur saying is we're not cool anymore or something of that nature????"....she then responded with..."no i just dont f*@#
wit nobody from this school"..........hint hint: naw bitch we aint cool....

....sooo i left it at that....now my dilemma is: i am extremely loyal to all of my friends...but once u justify urself as someone who is no longer my friend or as someone who no loner "F's" with me (which has the same meaning) u never get that friendship back....the bond will never be as tight, the vibe will never be the same...now i can swallow my pride and kinda sorta give you some kind of friendship but it will never be that friendship as it was before.....

.....now like i said in the beginnig X is my girl or should i say was my girl???....but watever....i dont know if i should let her cum back and reclaim her spot as it seems she is tryin to do now...or should i give her the same treatment as everyone else who walks in and out of my life.....

.....good friends are hard to find in this world so when u find them u should hold onto them rite...or when u let it slip away do u try to get it back or let it drift away????....